#1: How can I even begin to explain this situation between us. You are and always have been such an amazing person to me. You've been my strength for almost 6 years now and I could never risk what we have even if that means letting you be with some stupid lame ass hoe who doesn't even deserve you. I LOVE YOU that much, to sit here everyday knowing that no matter how much it hurts me I have to let it be because to lose you and what we have as best friends... it would end me.
#2: My utmost and sincerest apologies go out to YOU, the one person who should've never got hurt. I want to take a minute to explain myself in all different aspects of this dilemma but what it all comes down to in the end isn't understanding on your side. Instead it's just another punch in the face to how heartless I may seem in not just your eyes but everyone else who got their hopes up for you and I. I'm sorry if I made it seem like it was a waste of your time, but I reassure you, it most definitely wasn't a waste to me. I wanted so badly to prove myself to you hoping that I would change your expectations on girls instead I made it so much worse. I never took you for granted, I never lied, I was never unfaithful ... all I did was stop myself from hurting you knowing truly and completely that my heart wasn't in it completely. I would rather hurt you with the truth than with a lie, and the truth is ... what we had was fun while it lasted, but it slowly faded away and I tried so hard to keep holding on but it wasn't enough. Yet for all that you've done I owe you everything, you kept my head up when I needed that extra push and that shoulder to cry on, you came running when I was in need. Even though you hate me ... I'm so thankful for you in my life.
#3: Simply put, we are way too messed up for each other. Sorry but it didn't work out 274637463785466567897 times before and right now I need to stop while I'm ahead.... you'll find someone who wont be as difficult as me.
reason...
electronic love.
I'm hoping karma doesn't come back to bite me in the ass because I've been unhappy for too long to let it keep letting happiness slip right through my fingers.
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