I needed this, a little getaway from the city life. Maybe it was about time I cleared my mind and put all my priorities in order. All the stress from school, friends, and family were beginning to eat away at me. Sometimes it hits me why I can’t be so perfect and be the pride and joy rather than just another comparison to the rest of the family and all their achievements. Just because I choose to live my life before I lock myself up in another eternity of school I’m getting put down. It’s been this constant issue with school and how I don’t know what I want to become and automatically I’m again being put down for not knowing what I want to base my entire future on just yet, for heavens sake I’m just a teenager I still want to see the world and who really gets a chance to see the world after school without having to worry about work, or kids, or any other commitments.
On another note I feel as if I’m being pulled in a million different directions … I noticed that I’ve been completely M.I.A from a ton of people yet at the same time life still keeps pilling up with all these things as well I’m the one who’s got to be left feeling like shit because I haven’t been around to party or to do the usual things that I used to do. No matter what I do nothing seems right and I’m trying to be superwoman at 17. Hopefully when I get back the world goes easy on me because I’m so ready to crack even with the slightest movement.
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