Worth it.

Finally a blog worth the effort.

Have you ever had a day good or bad where for some reason you have nothing to do but clean out your facebook and in doing so stumble across old photos, old notes, and old shit all together. Then finally once you've felt as if your satisfied with what you've done, realise how much you've changed and in looking back on all those pictures, you then relive the moments that it was captured on film. It's sad to look back and let reality take you in completely, basically swallow you whole and make it so that you start to kind of hurt.

I relived each day to each photograph I clicked back on. All at once it came crashing down to a point where I had to try to emotionally and mentally deattach myself from reminiscing. I was stuck looking back and this overwhelming feeling of want. I wanted so badly to still be living in my past, I missed the hard core partying, the endless nights with the ladies I loved, and all the gossip. I craved for my hipster days back, because back then being single was so easy and so natural. Back then life was simplicity, it was down to the very basics of just my girls and me.

With all that I had to take in, the most painful of it all was to get it to my head that I lost my bestfriends. I lost some really crazy moments, moments that would've replaced all the painful ones I had now. With moving on from that life I signed myself up for a life addicted to the game (love game) of constantly looking for that break, that ONE GUY who I would be able to just sit back and just soak n lifes goodness with.

All in all, I miss it truly and completely miss it... I miss it how I used to kick it.

p.s:
L.dubz, never will I go back on my word. I'm working on your forgivness.