un FUCKING believeable!

4 fucking years and I´m left here still crying over the same shit. I locked that part of me away will all those memories, I was okay before the truth came out! How could you do this to me again? endless heartache is what it is ... My first love is what it was ... my biggest regret is what it should always be.

I can´t believe that after 4 years the truth still hasnt been told till now. The worst feeling now isn´t losing you because of thinking I was in the wrong but because YOU KEPT THE TRUTH FROM ME! how could you let me walk away after all the things I did and sacrificed. How could you let me get on that plane 4 fucking years ago and hide what you really felt. Now what´s left of me to keep wandering like some lost soul all over again.

How could you ... how could you just forget a year of loving me? I dont get it. I dont understand how after 4 years you tell me I shouldn´t have changed my flight, that I shoud´ve came running back because there was still a reason for me to come home. HOW COULD YOU FUCKING RIP OPEN THOSE SCARS THAT TOOK YEARS TO TRY AND HEAL.

I dont want to love you anymore but why can´t I let you go... why can´t I erase you from my memory, why are you still haunting me!!!!!!!!