let me put you in your place

Let me tell you straight up all the things Ive been dying to tell you for almost a damn year now. Before it all, before everything and anything you had my heart racing knowing that you GENUINELY cared. Cared enough to stay up late at night and tell me things, secrets that you'd never wanted to share with anyone else and with that alone you made me feel so wanted so special enough for you to turn to me and to trust me barely even knowing. You let me in when they all just shut me out, when them other " fellas " used me as a trophy and only cared about what I looked like rather than what I was inside you saw through it all and took the time to learn it.

I want you to know that every time my phone beeped my heart skipped a beat no matter how lame the text MSG I couldn't help but smile. Everyday I woke up running to my cell phone wishing you a good morning rain or shine. Every time I tried to stay away I couldn't stop and i was hooked. For the first time in a long time you got me to really smile again. Every day I always take the time the moment to reflect and see how it would be if maybe just maybe I took the time to go to krispy kreme and get that one doughnut that I wanted so badly. Yet every time I try it's like I'm being pushed away. It's like you wont let me in anymore and I wanna still be here for you, you don't understand how badly I just wanna be here, there, where ever for you even if that does mean being away.

I'm sorry I was so stupid.