I can't do it without you, you are my everything.

I really can't deal with all the extra negativity on my plate I just can't handle it. I've already looked into seeing a damn psychiatrist for all this stress, all this bullshit that life keeps having to throw at me since apparently enough never really is enough ... At least that's how my life tends to roll. Seriously I don't want to put anyone in a position where they have to chose, I don't wanna be put in the position of having to deal with some little high school girl drama cause I'm way too over that, I don't want to try again because I'm just too drained of trying, of crying, of all that nonsense. Agh I've just lost hope in so much people and in so much shit, I'm going to start being a little more M.I.A and focus on things that should be more important to me. Like to telly you all the truth all you're bullshit is nothing to me I have my dad to worry about and what I'm going to do if I lose him so don't even try to act like you're being victimized it really is the last thing on my agenda. So if you want to file a complaint to me get a number and take a seat. I hate to be a bitch but really if you treated me half as good as I have to you then you wouldn't have to be on the bottom of my I DON'T REALLY GIVE A SHIT list :) For all other people I know half of you have been busy, I know the other half are dealing with their own problems, but all in all I know you guys would come to comfort me in a second and drop whatever it was you were doing just to make sure I smiled and I thank you guys and for respecting my requests to be alone you guys know without a doubt I'd still drop whatever I would be doing at 3 in the morning and mission to your houses :).

lots of love and respect to those who've realllyyy been there far or near, and for the others... you're welcome for showing you what a true friend really was and I'm NOT sorry that you took advantage of me and now I want nothing to do with you :).

p.s:
KK, I'm out of words I still think about you but I guess staying away is all thats left for me. Agh I fucked up so bad, but I know it's the right thing.